The Pit



Melanie Ritter: 15/f/ct
Scene: Gothic
Status: Consider me married
I love you, Freddy.

   


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Bands from Wallingford, CT:

Scare Bears
Intricate Unit
Zeller
Nothingstar
Flip Ya For Real
Shards and Thorns (no website)
FinsterMeisterin (my not-yet-formed band)

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Oct 20, 2003
This school year so far in a soundtrack...

My Immortal- Evanescence Someday- Nickelback When I'm Gone- 3 Doors Down Here Without You- 3 Doors Down Faint- Linkin Park I Knew I Loved You (Before I Met You)- Savage Garden Angel of Mine- Monica feat. Brandy Going Under- Evanescence Sober- Tool 3 Libras- A Perfect Circle Weak and Powerless- A Perfect Circle The Patient- Tool Schism- Tool Reflection- Tool Naked- Avril Lavinge Hanging by a Moment- Lifehouse Sick Cycle Carousel- Lifehouse Cling and Clatter- Lifehouse Breathing- Lifehouse Somewhere in Between- Lifehouse There will be more, I just gotta get my shit together for school...

Posted at 06:29 am by DoOrDie146


Oct 19, 2003
Another one of those thingies

:: BASICS ::
1. What was the hardest subject in high school for you? Algebra, I fucking hate algebra
2. Have you ever tried sushi and do you like it? EEW!!!
3. Did you ever have acne? It used to be really bad on my forehead but it got better over the years.
4. Which show is funnier-That 70s Show or Friends? That 70s Show, when you've seen every Friends episode imaginable all your life about 50 times you get pretty sick of it.
5. Did you ever get a makeover? They tried, and failed.
6. How much did your last haircut cost? Uhh...$30?

:: HAVE YOU EVER ::
07. Said "I hope you die" to someone: No, don't believe I have.
08. Tried to kill yourself: That's a funny question...this is me we're talking about, Miss Emo, of course I have.
09. Gotten in a fist fight: lol Yeah
10. Lied to your parents: Oh yeah of course
11. Lied to your friends: Uh no I don't lie to my friends, no need to.
12. Bit someone: lol I bit Matt last night.
13. Gotten drunk: So many times it's not even funny
14. Gotten totally wasted: Hell yeah!
15. Given someone a bruise: Yeah, gotten quite a few too, I've got one on my leg from Freddy *glares playfully*
16. Freak danced: ???
17. Cut yourself: On purpose? I've got scars.
18. Skipped school: Umm...I've played hooky.
19. Hung up on someone: Only if they pissed me off enough.
20. Gone commando: lol Yeah, not a good thing when you've got a horny boyfriend, it just excites them more.
21. Thrown up at school: Actually yeah but I had a hangover...

:: GIRL TALK ::
01. Do you stuff your bra? lol No and about 13 guys can vouch for that.
02. Have you ever stuffed your bra? lol Never had to (Ya, Robyn, big boobied girls unite! lol)
03. What make-up do you wear daily? Some eye stuff and some lip stuff
04. What are your underwear like right now? Ummm...purple lol
05. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Only like, 4 pairs.
06. Come on, tell the truth. Is that really your true hair color? No, this is dyed black, my real hair color is probably slightly darker than Robyn's, slightly lighter than Sarah's.
07. What do you most like about your body? lol Next question
08. And least? Umm try everything
09. How many fillings do you have? 1 from my root canal
10. Do you think you're good looking? Well I'm not like, ass-ugly or nothin
11. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking? Whenever I put myself down, which is often
12. Do you look like any celebrities? Well a little like that girl that played Jesse Reeves in Queen of the Damned when I had red hair.
13. Do you like a man with muscles or not? I prefer au natural
14. Tall or short men? lol I guess I have to say it doesn't matter now, I used to date all tall guys and now I'm going out with Matt
15. Does your dream guy have long or short hair? It doesn't matter
16. What's the hair situation 'down there'? Umm...usually there is no situation cuz there's no hair.
17. How long is your leg hair? Umm maybe like a millimeter length
18. Ever come close to having sex, but didn't? umm no lol
19. With who? n/a
20. If so, why didn't you? n/a
21. Are your eyebrows a different color from your hair? Umm yeah
22. Do you pluck your eyebrows? No I'm skilled with the razor...or at least I think I am lol plucking hurts!
23. When did you last have a hickey, and where? I still have one and on my neck lol
24. Are you on birth control? No.
25. Can you dance? Yeah
26. Can you lick your nipple? Um, yeah actually I can
27. Do you struggle with self-esteem? Yes.
28. Do you or have you ever had an eating disorder? Um yeah I don't eat enough
29. When was your first period? Like the beginning of 6th grade.
30. If you unexpectedly got pregnant, what would you do? I would be so down to Planned Parenthood to abort the motherfucker...
31. Future daughters/sons names? Uhhh...Daughter: Mercedes or Lilith Son: Damien or (Insert guy's name) JR.
32. Are you pro-choice? Pro-choice? Yeah, sure.
33. Do your underwear and bras usually match? No not usually, colors maybe but fabrics or styles no.

:: THE PAST ::
01. Any good memories from this year? Umm...not really...
02. Any bad memories from this year? OMG Want a list?
03. Do you regret anything from this year? I regret not trying harder with Freddy, that's all.
04. Do you regret anything you've ever done? Yes.
05. Who was your first boyfriend/girlfriend? My first? Well my first boyfriend was Jake Shatkyvich and I havent had a girlfriend yet lol (Bi chicks rock! lol)
06. Did you ever have braces? No, never needed them.
07. What is your best childhood memory? Best childhood memory? Sad, I don't have one.
08. Do you have the same friends you did when you were seven and under? Yeah like 5 of them. Jen, Steph, Matt D, Steve D, and John.
09. What color hair did you have as a kid? Lighter brown.
10. What does your name mean? Melanie is a hebrew name meaning 'Dark', kinda ironic.

:: THE PRESENT ::
01. Current Music: Marilyn Manson, of course
02. Current CD in player: Umm, see above
03. Current conversations: Freddy on AIM
04. Current time: 11:29am
05. Current clothes: black velvet pants and a red and black striped shirt
06. Current hair: Down and a mess lol
07. Current taste: Pepsi and umm..blood, I think I bit my tongue.
08. Current mood: Relieved
09. Current smell: The nasty musty smell of the rug in this room
10. Current thing you should be doing: lol Homework, probably
11. Current desktop picture: Some black lab
12. Current favorite group: Group? Nickelback, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Godsmack, AC/DC, Marilyn Manson, Cradle of Filth, I could keep going
13. Current book: Macbeth and Merrick by Anne Rice
14. Current refreshment: Pepsi
15. Current worry: I worry about everything, especially myself right now cuz something just doesn't feel right.
16. Current crush: Umm, Matt, yeah, that makes sense doesnt it? Well it should.


Posted at 11:40 am by DoOrDie146


Sep 10, 2003
Words

Their simple words
Cut like razor blades
Sharpened for a thousand years
Hurting like the sun has fallen onto Earth
Burning everything around
Cutting me down
Burning my mind away
Who thought it could hurt so much
Words that hurt
Pain like none other
The staring
The laughing
The words


Posted at 11:00 am by DoOrDie146


The Fire Burns

The fire burns inside
Passion burning inside
I see you and my heart speeds up
I get hot all over
I want your body
The fire burns
I want you now
Aching to feel your flesh
Pressed against mine
My mind losing all focus
Only one track to follow
My fire burns for you
The hot sweet fire
Of desire
It burns




Gee...I wonder who this might be dedicated to lol

Posted at 11:00 am by DoOrDie146


One Year Gone By

I look back on the year gone by
Seeing the hard times and the good times
Living the whole thing over again in my mind
From the beginning one quiet November eve
To the recent day in this sunny September
I live it all again in my mind
If I could go back to that day I'd do it all over again
I'd do everything the same
I look back and I fall in love all over again
A whole year almost gone
We've changed for the better
We are both better people because of each other
If I could go back to that day
I'd do it all over again, I'd do it all the same
I fall in love all over again
My year of love
My many more years of love to come
Thank you for being a part of me
I love you




Dedicated to my Freddy (and our relationship, one year together on November 16th)

Posted at 10:59 am by DoOrDie146


My Angel

Angelic face as he sleeps
He doesn't realize how innocent he looks
He wakes up and smiles
Seems to radiate a steady white glow
Can't help but smile back
His soft black curls
Dark eyes that are so deep
They go on forever
He has a simple grace about him
One he doesn't even see
How beautiful he is to me
I just want to look into his eyes forever
Trapped in his soul
Beautiful dark angel
My angel, my love





Dedicated to my Freddy

Posted at 10:58 am by DoOrDie146


Love

Like the that dawn breaks the darkness of the night sky
With different hues of red, pink, and purple
The stars twinkle out in the night sky
The sun lighting up the clear green field
Sun warming the land
And warming our hearts
Such as love warms our hearts
A flame never to be put out


Posted at 10:56 am by DoOrDie146


Freak Out

I'm freaking out
Climbing these four white walls
No where to run
No where to hide
My mind is splitting
Cracking again
Paranoid all the time
Crying all the time
I'm finally freaking out again
Downward spiral
Slipping sanity
Digging a hole
Hole in my head
I'm flipping out
Forgetting all I've gained
All I've lost plays back again
My knuckles are raw and bloody
Beating on the wood of the coffin lid above
Got to wake up, because I'm freaking out

Posted at 10:53 am by DoOrDie146


Beauties

Like the rose blooming in the cool summer night
Covered in a misty morning dew

Like the gentle caterpillar bursting out of his cacoon, fluttering away as a magnificent orange butterfly
Like the delicate spring night
Stars blanketing the blue-black sky

Like the beautiful baby girl
Born into the light from her mother's whomb

Such beauty as this is only matched by one specific thing
The love of another



Dedicated to my Freddy

Posted at 10:52 am by DoOrDie146